Most people I know managed to contain their growing-up experiences to a limited temporality; not allowing roots to grow into unmanageably scattered branches. Not me, though. By the time I was twenty, I had lived in five places, with no mathematical sense of time distribution. And no, I didn't/ don't belong to an army family; have just been peripatetic out of compulsion, tagging my father along wherever his whims took him next.

Since this seems to be the season for playing out memories to an open gallery, perhaps as catharsis, I thought I might as well try to fathom this "complicated" politics of social networking and reach out to as many people who contributed to this collective memory, as possble.

Out of the many places I happened to stay in, there was this one place where "destiny" (yes I know double inverted commas mean I'm quoting somebody here!) brought me back twice over; once in 1994, sometime before my 10th birthday; and the second & last time just after my Madhyamik Examinations-just before my 17th birthday! This place was known very far and wide just by its number-50 No.!!! Even though it was actually a co-operative housing society with about 70 families living over a sprawling space, the number 50, much like Billa no 786, managed to carry a weight of its own, lending to its members a power of intimidating superiority over all other houses and apartments over the entire Tollygunge territory! From as far as Golf Club Road, all you had to instruct the rickshaw-wallah by way of direction was say "50 No."! Kaafi hai!

This place was nothing like anything I had seen or lived in before, or ever since. The colour, texture and symmetry of brick is the first thing that I can think of when I close my eyes...the facade of all the six floors, the entire garage area, everything was done up in brick-something that leads me to automatically think orange first, when I think of Golf Link Apartments, 50. Chanditala Lane, Calcutta-40! It must have been the monsoons when I first went to stay there, for I just cant seem to get the smell of dark-green moss growing wherever there was brick, out of my system,that made cycling across the four bends such a slippery venture for all those who could, and running such a daunting task for others who tried to race their friends or scuttle along to a safer hiding spot during a particularly riveting session of Lukochuri! While hiding, you could sometimes spot a curious little frog croaking hoarsely at you and giving your secure hiding spot away; or perhaps a slimy snail that rid up your polka-dotted "pump-shoe" making you screech and earning the lifelong label of being a "tnash"!!!

Outside school, I made my first friends here. More importantly, made my first friends from the opposite sex here. Most among these boys, I viewed with disdain or suspicion; others, my snooty school upbringing forbade me from even considering as human!!! I was not to blame entirely of course! Some of these boys DID indeed stare at skirts and slacks that rode above the knee with such gaping wonderment, it made me want to go 'eww'!!! Moreover, I had trouble initially getting accustomed to a 'hi' not met with another 'hi' but a 'ki rrya, or having to play 'kit-kit' (not hopscotch, mind you!) barefeet'!!! Small things, insignificant things, yes, but those that have funnily enough, stayed back with me, even after seventeen long years! Some of these associations, these friendships last me till date-would have liked to use 'lifetime', but life has taught me to not take the poesy of this term too seriously!


We used to be an entire assorted bunch of kids coming from different socio-cultural backgrounds, going to different schools, having sparring parents as neighbours or with precociously secretive crushes on that guy from the 5th floor, or this girl form the 1st!!! Oh what hush-hush affairs they used to be! Couldnt be shared with anyone but the 'best-friend' (subject to change every week, or if you were very very loyal and stable, every two months!)- a coveted position for a girl in particular, especially if she stood to share the secret!!! But for all our juvenile puppy loves, there were scenes of real, dynamic action happening among our dadas and didis! Now access to that was classified information, and unless either one among the young couple had a younger brother or sister, someone who was in the know of the budding affair, someone who moreover, would be willing to pass on all the juicy details to us, there was very little we could do but gossip, speculate and chinese-whisper up stories that turned out to be more colourful than the real stuff!!! Public festivals like Holi, Saraswati Puja or Durga Puja however would be occasions where these romances could be played out in the open with relatively less self-consciousness. A boy would, for instance sit on one of those red plastic chairs and even while drumming on another one, belt out the just released "Parbo na hote ami Romeo, tai duppur belate ghumiyo, aste hobe na ar baranday...Ranjana ami ar ashbona..." and the short message would be delivered, loud and clear, even without the menace called the mobile phone. Some of these affairs were nipped in the bud, as Bela Bose's were married off to grooms more prosperous; others bloomed into lasting partnerships that today remain as tangible connects to a past I seem to have otherwise lost somewhere...a past where it was still enough to have a 'chakri'-any 'chakri'- to secure your standing vis-a-vis the girl or her parents; 'space', 'incompatabilty' were still thankfully fancy issues that you heard on 'Bold and the Beautiful' on Star Tv!

There was a roof of course, but not many of us were lucky to have gone up there. What we remained contented with instead was the "fifth floor shniri". This nook is difficult to explain to anyone who has not been here. It led up to the roof, but was an abode unto itslef. The perfect place to hide on those monsoon afternoons when rain did not allow you to explore the garage; perfect for playing 'Miss Universe'-a game invented by some of the most ingenuous minds amongst our immedaite seniors-that had us girls acting as Miss India contestants (yes, at age 10 and less!!!), sashaying down the corridor right upto the judge (who would be one of us!) answering inane questions that Sushmita Sen or Aishwarya Rai had confidently mouthed that year or the last, do a little impromptu jig maybe, and then be declared 'Misssss 50 No.'...clap clap clap!!!!! The shniri nook was perfect of course for couples who needed a little space for themselves, what with CCD's or other similar haunts not having turned the city on its head back then!!! An unsuspecting (or ok, hiiiiighly suspicious-but-duly-bribed) soul would be made to stand at the head of the shniri to alert them off any possible threat in the form of a Kakima or a nosey kid or a morally upright thakuma!!!


The railings of these little balconied stair-tops are another image that keep haunting me...red iron rods that held on to rainwater drops on to its surface like dew on a sun-kissed leaf...all you had to do is stand with your palm cupped beneath it and let the drops fall one by one and fill your senses up with its cool soothing touch...Strange, but rain has never smelled the same anywhere else. On many of such quiet afternoons, while I waited for my friends to come out one by one to play, I stood there alone, watched the drops of water fall lazily from the mango tree, or from the railings; watch the crow drenched to the bone, perched on the railing, too busy shivering to take not of me...silent moments that would be broken occasionally by a friend coming down with a bat, a racket or with stumps down and pausing to ask, 'ki re...khelti jabi to?'...

This place will be special to me for more reasons than one, reasons that are too deeply private to be brandished in public, even under the garb of catharsis. I havent been here in ages, and last heard, dont know very many people who actually live here anymore. Characters, corners and experiences of this place are far far too many to fit in one facebook note, neither is that the intention. Its the monsoons in Calcutta, esepcially when they mellow down to lazy drizzles by afternoon, that stir up memories of this place that made me, unmade me and made me anew...I dont wish to visit you again......